Where I share my love of books with reviews, features, giveaways and memes. Family and needlepoint are thrown in from time to time.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Well-Seasoned Reader Challenge

I like those challenges that make you find something in a title or book, etc - so this one should be fun to hunt down books for!


Here's how it works:

Rule #1: The challenge runs from January 1 to March 31. (No cheating and starting before!)

Rule #2: You must read three books. After that, it's up to you how much you want to read.

Rule #3: The books must: have a food name in the title OR be about cooking/eating OR have a place name in the title OR be about one (or more) person's travel experience OR be about a specific culture OR be by an author whose ethnicity is other than your own. I'll leave it up to you to choose how the three books you read fit the criteria.

Rule #4: They must be middle-grade on up, but can be either fiction or non-fiction.The purpose, this winter, is to take yourself someplace out of the ordinary, to go on a literary trip, whether that be challenging your expectations, discovering a new place, or enjoying the experience of reading about good food, places, and people.

Sign up using the Mr. Linky at challenge host website - Book Nut.

  1. - The Joy Luck Club - Amy Tan (author different ethnicity than mine)
  2. - Drinking Coffee Elsewhere - ZZ Packer (food in title)
  3. - Trail of Crumbs - Kim Sunee (about food/eating and different ethnicity than mine)

Books read:

  1. Lessons From San Quentin - Bill Dallas (Place name in title)
  2. The Spring of Candy Apples - Debbie Viguie (Food in title)
  3. Trail of Crumbs - Kim Sunee (about food/eating, food in title, and author different ethnicity than mine)
  4. The Fruit of My Lipstick - Shelley Adina (Food in title)

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Celebrate the Author Challenge



More about the challenge:
It is a twelve month challenge. January - December 2009.
The challenge is designed to “celebrate” author birthdays. Choose one author for each month of the year. Read at least one book a month. 12 authors. 12 birthdays. If you like, you can read MORE than that. The challenge is designed to ‘celebrate’ the special bond–the connection–that occurs between the author AND the reader as well as the connection between readers. It is very easy to “bond” with other readers over certain works, certain authors, etc.
To find out author birthdays, visit these helpful sites:
Author birthdays by date (pdf), author birthdays by name (pdf), kidsreads.com, teenreads.com, author birthday directory, etc.
Or conduct google searches of your own. (Hint: typing the authors name, a “+” and the word ‘birthday’, tends to work if you assume that wikipedia gets such things right.)
You can choose picture books, poetry books, early readers, chapter books, fiction for middle grades, fiction for teens, adult reads, nonfiction, whatever you want. You could choose 12 picture books. You can read books in or out of your comfort zone.
You might want to make a list and choose alternatives for each month…that way you can narrow it down as you go. And you do NOT have to choose a book until the very moment you’re ready to start reading. Just pick a handful of authors.
And here’s the secret. If you change your mind, just be sure to change your list to reflect that change. I don’t care how many times you change your list.
This year the round ups will be here on this wordpress site. You’ll be leaving links to your reviews. If you write reviews that is. Or you’ll be leaving comments to say what you read.
To sign up for this challenge, please leave a comment here. Thank you Becky for hosting this challenge!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Big Holiday Giveaway by Tina

BIG BOOK AND CHRISTMAS CD GIVEAWAY!


Tina is so excited that her agents have given her a whole box of amazing products to give away to one lucky person! This is a short contest, so get the word out! Leave your comments or email her atforkner@yahoo.com by Sunday, December 21st!

I am receiving Five Extra Entries for posting this on my blog - and you can too!


The Gift Package Includes:
Amy Grant CD - The Christmas Collection http://www.amygrant.com/
Travis Cottrell CD - Ring The Bells http://traviscottrell.com/
Travis Cottrell CD - Found
Point of Grace CD - Tennessee Christmas http://pointofgrace.net
Point of Grace - How You Live Deluxe Edition
Michael W. Smith CD - It’s a Wonderful Christmas http://www.michaelwsmith.com/
Tina Ann Forkner - My novel, Ruby Among Us

Here are the rules:
1) One Entry - Leave a Comment and be sure it links back to your email information or that you leave your email in the comment.
2) Five Extra Entries - If you have given to a charitable cause in 2008.
3) Two Extra Entries - If you buy a copy of Ruby Among Us in December. You are on the honor system here.
4) One Extra Entry - If you have ever purchased a copy of Ruby Among Us.
5) One Extra Entry - If you have purchased ANY book during the month of December.
6) One Extra Entry - If you have purchased any CD by one of the artists mentioned in this giveaway during the year 2008.
7) One Extra Entry - If you have ever checked Ruby Among Us out from the library.
One Extra Entry - If you have ever read Ruby Among Us at all.

Visit Tina's blog here to sign up!

Where are You?




I am in the Monteverde Cloud Forest Reserve in Costa Rica. I am learning what it takes to start a new community and make it self-sustaining. We have to do everything from clear the land, establish a water supply, start new businesses (like a cheese factory) to provide income for the community, work our dairy farms and raise pigs! Of course I am Walking with Wolf. (From Walking with Wolf by Kay Chornook and Wolf Guindon)

Where are you?

Teaser Tuesday



Posting for the new weekly event, “TEASER TUESDAYS“!


Grab your current read. Let the book fall open to a random page. Share with us two (2) “teaser” sentences from that page, somewhere between lines 7 and 12. You also need to share the title of the book that you’re getting your “teaser” from … that way people can have some great book recommendations if they like the teaser you’ve given! Please avoid spoilers!
From Walking with Wolf by Kay Chornook and Wolf Guindon (p180) My parents both loved music, and in our house there was always some tune playing on the radio or the record player. They encouraged my sister and me to play the piano and sing in the choir, but we both preferred to get up on our feet and boogie.
Share your teaser today!

2009 Young Adult Book Challenge

Well, since I have been wanting my daughter to read more, I have told her that as soon as basketball season is over- she and I were going to start reading together more - this should help me reach the goal for this YA challenge!







Guidelines for 2009 Young Adult Book Challenge

1. Anyone can join. You don't need a blog to participate.

2. Read 12 Young Adult novels. You may list your chosen books any time during the year. Change the list if needed.

3. Challenge begins January thru December, 2009.

4. You can join anytime between now and December 31, 2009. .



When you sign up under Mr. Linky, put the direct link to your post where your Young Adult novels will be listed. If you list just your blog’s URL, it will be removed. This should be done at the challenge host site - J.Kaye's Book Blog.




  1. - Pretties - Scott Westerfeld
  2. - Uglies - Scott Westerfeld

  3. - Specials - Scott Westerfeld

  4. - Extras - Scott Westerfeld

  5. - Twilight - Stephanie Meyer
  6. - It's All About Us - Shelley Adina

  7. - Be Strong and Curvaceous - Shelley Adina
  8. - The Fruit of My Lipstick - Shelley Adina

  9. - Just Listen - Sarah Dessen

  10. - The Truth About Forever - Sarah Dessen

  11. - Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince - J.K. Rowling

  12. - Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - J.K. Rowling
  13. - Inkheart - Cornelia Funke
  14. - Inkspell - Cornelia Funke
  15. - Inkdeath - Cornelia Funke
  16. - Watcher in the Woods - Robert Liparulo
  17. - Gatekeepers - Robert Liparulo
  18. - Lost in Las Vegas - Melody Carlson
  19. - Holes - Louis Sachar
  20. - The Spring of Candy Apples - Debbie Viguie
  21. - Diamonds in the Shadow - Caroline B. Cooney
  22. - Wicked Lovely - Melissa Marr
  23. - So Not Happening - Jenny B. Jones
  24. - New York Debut - Melody Carlson
  25. - Always Watching - Brandilyn and Amberly Collins
  26. - The Lake That Stole Children - Glenn Clark Douglas

Monday, December 15, 2008

2nds Challenge, 2009




This is a great way to combine 1st in a Series with this one. The only thing with 2nds is it doesn't have to be a series book. It can be a book from an author you've just read one book from before. I found a lot of authors that were new to me in 2008 - so finding a second book by them should be easy!







Here are the guidelines:

1. Anyone can join. You don't need to have a blog to participate.
2. Read 12 books by authors that you have only read once. It doesn't have to be a series.
3. You can join anytime between now and December 31, 2009. Don't start reading until January.
4. You may list your chosen books any time during the year. Change the list if needed.



When you sign up under Mr. Linky, put the direct link to your post where your Young Adult novels will be listed. If you list just your blog’s URL, it will be removed. That should be done here - at J. Kaye's Book Blog.



I will be building my list as I go:
  1. - Robert Liparulo - Watcher in the Woods (1st book was House of Dark Shadows)
  2. - Ted Dekker - Boneman's Daughter (1st book was Kiss)
  3. - Claudia Mair Burney - Murder, Mayhem and a Fine Man (1st book was Deadly Charm)
  4. - Melody Carlson - New York Debut (1st book was Lost in Las Vegas)
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  9. - Shelley Adina - It's All About Us (1st book was Be Strong and Curvaceous)
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  11. - Robin Shope - The Valentine Edition (1st book was The Christmas Edition)
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Sunday, December 14, 2008

Support Your Local Library




These books, of course, must come from your local library - since I frequent our library quite often, this should be an easy one! I am going to go for 50. I have decided to keep a second list also - of children's books that I read to my son this year from the library - it will be at the bottom in Green!


Here are the guidelines:


1) You can join anytime as long as you don’t start reading your books prior to 2009.


2) This challenge is for 2009 only. The last day to have all your books read is December 31, 2009.


3) You can join anytime between now and December 31, 2009.


4) When you sign up under Mr. Linky, list the direct link to your post where your library books will be listed. If you list just your blog’s URL, it will be removed. If you don’t have a blog, leave the URL blank. You should do this on the host's webpage here.


5) Our goal is to read 12, 25, or 50 books checkout from our local library in 2009. Please decide which when you sign up and don’t change it.


6) These can be audios, downloads, children’s, YA. As long as it’s a book, format and target age group does not matter.



  1. - Watcher in the Woods - Robert Liparulo
  2. - The Road - Cormac McCarthy
  3. - The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
  4. - The House on Mango Street - Sandra Cisneros
  5. - Black Water - Joyce Carol Oates
  6. - Holes - Louis Sachar
  7. - It's All About Us - Shelley Adina
  8. - The Fruit of My Lipstick - Shelley Adina
  9. - Wicked Lovely - Melissa Marr
  10. - Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince - J.K. Rowling
  11. - Murder, Mayhem and a Fine Man - Claudia Mair Burney
  12. - Pleasure Unbound - Larissa Ione
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Kids books that have been read to my son from the library:
  1. More Fun With Maisy - Lucy Cousins (Jan 2)
  2. Katy Duck dance star - Alyssa Satin Capucilli (Jan 2)
  3. If You Give a Mouse a Cookie - Laura Joffe Numeroff (Jan 2)
  4. Get to Work, Trucks! - Don Carter (Jan 3)
  5. The Worm Family - Tony Johnston (Jan 3)
  6. Pie in the Sky - Lois Ehlert (Jan 3)
  7. This Train - Paul Collicutt (Jan 6)
  8. The Smushy Bus - Leslie Helakoski (Jan 9)(Jan 13)
  9. Matthew's Truck - Katherine Ayres (Jan 9)
  10. Good Morning Engines - Britt Allcroft (Jan 9)
  11. Alexander's Pretending Day - Bunny Crumpacker (Jan 10)
  12. Motor Graders - Jean Eick (Jan 10)
  13. The Wolf Who Cried Boy - Bob Hartman (Jan 10)
  14. Going Places - (Jan 13)
  15. Curious George Visits a Police Station - (Jan 13)
  16. The Little Mouse, the Red Ripe Strawberry, and the Big Hungry Bear -Don Wood (Jan 13)
  17. Toy Story II - Play a Sound - (Jan 16)
  18. Blue's Music Maker - Play a Song - (Jan 17)
  19. Hello, Robots - Bob Staake (Jan 20)(Jan 22)(Jan 27)
  20. Reptar to the Rescue - Stephanie St. Pierre (Jan 20)
  21. Young MacDonald - David Milgrim (Jan 22)
  22. Little Boy - Alison McGhee and Peter Reynolds (Jan 29)
  23. My Subway Ride - Paul Dubois Jacobs and Jennifer Swender (Jan 31)
  24. Old MacDonald Had a Woodshop - Lisa Shulman (Feb 1)
  25. Itchy Itchy Chicken Pox (Feb 10)
  26. Walter the Farting Dog - William Kotzwinkle (Feb 12) (Feb 15)
  27. Curious George Goes to the Beach - Margret and H.A. Rey (Feb 13)
  28. Sleepy Cadillac - Thacher Hurd (Feb 15)
  29. Curious George and the Dump Truck - Margret and H.A. Rey (Feb 15)
  30. Shape Space - Cathryn Falwell (Feb 18)
  31. Maisy's Morning on the Farm - Lucy Cousins (Feb 21)
  32. Alphabet City (Feb 23)
  33. Kipper's Toy Box - Mick Inkpen (Feb 23)
  34. The Bestest Mom - Susan Hood (Feb 25)
  35. Sailor Boy Jig - Margaret Weis Brown (Feb 25)
  36. Hoppity Skip Little Chick - Jo Brown (Feb 25)
  37. Freight Train - Donald Crews (Feb 25)
  38. Curious George and the Hot Air Balloon - Margret and H.A. Rey (Mar 2)






Saturday, December 13, 2008

Series Challenge Season 3

Kathrin at Crazy Cozy Murders is hosting this series challenge. The challenge starts December 1st, 2008 and goes until November 30th, 2009.

The rules are easy:

1) Pick a couple series you already started and now want to finish (meaning, you'll be all up to date with the series when it ends).

2) Read at least 4 books, more are also okay, of course!

3) Post your review of the books on your blog or in the comment section at Crazy Cozy Murders , no matter how long. If you post the review on your blog, please post a link to the review at Crazy Cozy Murders in the comment section so that everyone else can check out your review.

4) Have fun!



I can already think of 3 series that I need to finish:



  1. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

  2. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

  3. The Hollow by Nora Roberts (Sign of Seven Trilogy)

  4. Pagan Stone by Nora Roberts (Sign of Seven Trilogy)
  5. Watcher in the Woods - Robert Liparulo
  6. The Gatekeepers - Robert Liparulo



If I think of more I will add them as I go along - there is always the J.D. Robb series - but I still have tons of books to go there!



Cornelia Funke Challenge



The Cornelia Funke challenge started on December 1 , 2008 and ends March 1, 2009. She has written numerious books, one of which is currently becoming a movie.
Here are the rules:
1. You must read at least three books that are written by Cornelia Funke (i.e. Inkheart, Inkspell, Inkdeath, etc.)
2. When you join, please leave a comment at the challenge host site here, with a link to where you posted which Cornelia Funke books you are going to read.
3. You can join at any time between today and March 1, 2009.


I have been wanting to read her "Ink" books anyway - so signing up for this challenge should push me into doing so!

  1. Inkheart
  2. Inkspell
  3. Inkdeath

Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro




Never Let Me Go - by Kazuo Ishiguro




From the cover: As a child, Kathy - now thirty-one years old, lived at Hailsham, a private school in the scenic English countryside where the children were sheltered from the outside world, brought up to believe that they were special and that their well-being was crucial not only for themselves but for the society they would eventually enter. Kathy had long ago put this idyllic past behind her, but when two of her Hailsham friends come back into her life, she stops resisting the pull of memory.

And so, as her friendship with Ruth is rekindled, and as the feelings that long ago fueled her adolescent crush on Tommy begin to deepen into love, Kathy recalls their years at Hailsham. She describes happy scenes of boys and girls growing up together, unperturbed-even comforted-by their isolation. But she describes other scenes as well: of discord and misunderstanding that hint at a dark secret behind Hailsham's nurturing facade. With the dawning clarity of hindsight, the three friends are compelled to face the truth about thier childhood-and their lives now.

My review (contains spoilers below) - At first, I did not like this book- it took awhile for me to get into the storyline, but once there, I wanted - needed - to know what happened to these three friends and how the story was going to end. It is told sort of in flashbacks by Kathy, so we really only get her point of view of what her friends were thinking or going through. The book definitely kept my attention and was different from any story that I had read before. Although the book is kind of a downer, I would recommend it. With all the advancements in medical technology, it is not hard to imagine a world such as that described. I would hope that humankind would not ever be able to think that they could create a child that would be without a soul though!


Spoiler alert -


The children themselves were clones who were being raised specifically for organ donation -which, after so many donations (usually 4) they would "complete" or die. As children, they did not seem to realize the seriousness of this, or that their lives would be any different or shorter than normal children. The school, Hailsham, that they lived at was hoping to show the world that these "clones" had souls just as normal humans had souls.

It sounded as if every donor first became a carer- sort of a traveling nurse who looked after the donors - once they left the school for their first assignment, book didn't discuss how or where they lived or by what means they lived - so I was lead to believe that they were "taken care of" throughout their lives because of the fact that they were clones. Somehow in the cloning process though, they were not able to have children - so it seemed that sex to them was purely recreational and not really attached to any feelings..

It isn't until the end of the book that I can see that Tommy and Kathy had real feelings for each other and they were finally realizing the frustration of their lives and the hopeless, non-existent future that they will never share. Never Let Me Go was a very apt title! 5/5 stars



New Author Challenge





(For full rules please see challenge host at Literary Escapism)

The challenge will run from January 1, 2009 through December 31, 2009.
Since this is an author challenge, there is no restriction on choosing your novels. They can definitely be from other challenges. However, the authors must be new to you and, preferably from novels, but anthologies are also a great way to try someone new.
I want this to be an easy challenge, so you state how many new authors you want to try this year and then that’s your challenge. For me, I’m trying another 50 new authors. If you want a number given to you, try for either 25 or 50.
Bloggers or Non-Bloggers alike are welcome
When you read a new author, write your review and then come back here and post a link to your review.

Ok - since I just signed up for the 100 books yesterday - I am going to say that 50 of them will be from new authors!

  1. - Shelley Adina - Be Strong and Curvaceous
  2. - Kay Chornook & Wolf Guindon - Walking with Wolf
  3. - Cormac McCarthy - The Road
  4. - Alice Sebold - The Lovely Bones
  5. - Sandra Cisneros - The House on Mango Street
  6. - M.L. Tyndall - The Red Siren
  7. - Joyce Carol Oates - Black Water
  8. - Matthew Stanford, PhD - Grace for the Afflicted
  9. - Karen Rose - Scream for Me
  10. - Julia Harper - For the Love of Pete
  11. - Melody Carlson - Lost in Las Vegas
  12. -Louis Sachar - Holes
  13. - Rebeca Seitz - Scrapping Plans
  14. - Bill Dallas - Lessons From San Quentin
  15. - Cecelia Dowdy - John's Quest
  16. - Debbie Viguie - The Spring of Candy Apples
  17. - Kim Sunee - Trail of Crumbs
  18. - Cheryl and Jeff Scruggs - I Do Again
  19. - Virginia Smith - Age Before Beauty
  20. - Ted Dekker and Erin Healy - Kiss
  21. - Helen Hollick - The Kingmaking
  22. - Eleanor Gustafson - The Stones
  23. - Mike Dellosso - Scream
  24. - Caroline B. Cooney - Diamonds in the Shadow
  25. - Kate Perry - Marked by Passion
  26. - Ginger Kolbaba and Christy Scannell - Katt's in the Cradle
  27. - Claudia Mair Burney - Deadly Charm
  28. - Deborah Raney - Yesterday's Embers
  29. - Donna Lea Simpson - Lady Anne and the Howl in the Dark
  30. - Jill Mansell - An Offer You Can't Refuse
  31. - Beth Nimmo and Darrell Scott - Rachel's Tears
  32. - Adam Blumer - Fatal Illusions
  33. - David Cristofano - The Girl She Used To Be
  34. - Melissa Marr - Wicked Lovely
  35. - Karen White - The Lost Hours
  36. - Jenny B. Jones - So Not Happening
  37. - Andy Andrews - The Noticer
  38. - Kendra Leigh Castle - Wild Highland Magic
  39. - Libby Malin - Fire Me
  40. - Caryn Dahlstrand Rivedeneira - Mama's Got a Fake I.D.
  41. - Rick Collignon - Madewell Brown
  42. - Brandilyn and Amberly Collins - Always Watching
  43. - Glenn Clark Douglas - The Lake That Stole Children
  44. - Michael Malone - The Four Corners of the Sky
  45. - Larissa Ione - Pleasure Unbound
  46. - Daphne du Maurier - Frenchman's Creek
  47. - Georgette Heyer - Why Shoot a Butler?
  48. - Charlotte Grieg - A Girl's Guide to Modern European Philosphy
  49. - Laura Lippman - What the Dead Know
  50. - Lisa Dale - Simple Wishes

Cursebreaker by Nancy Wentz



It is time to play a Wild Card! Every now and then, a book that I have chosen to read is going to pop up as a FIRST Wild Card Tour. Get dealt into the game! (Just click the button!) Wild Card Tours feature an author and his/her book's FIRST chapter!

You never know when I might play a wild card on you!





Today's Wild Card author is:


and the book:


Cursebreaker

Whitaker House (January 5, 2009)


ABOUT THE AUTHOR:


Born and raised in Colorado, award-winning author Nancy Wentz graduated cum laude from the University of Colorado. Two of her short stories, Henry Cushing and Babi Yar, were winners in the National Writers Association Short Story Contests. She has also written plays for the youth group to perform at her church and has freelanced articles for her current employer. Nancy has a great love for history and English literature, and, in their pursuit, found her creative outlet by incorporating aspects of both into her writing. Her voice is unique in that it refl ects a classic nuance not typically seen in modern writing.

Nancy became a Christian in her childhood and for years has prayed for God s will in her life. Through trials of brokenness and faith, God has shown her that He uses the most insignifi cant, the most defeated, to bring about His will and glory. This theme was the inspiration for her first novel that God chooses the foolish things of the world to confound the wise. Nancy and her husband have a wonderful young son. She and her family are active members of Littleton Baptist Church in Littleton, Colorado.

Visit the author's website.

Product Details:

List Price: $ 9.99
Paperback
Publisher: Whitaker House (January 5, 2009)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 1603740805
ISBN-13: 978-1603740807

AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:


Prologue

Winter, 1565

Italy


A turbulent wind assaulted the night, moaning through the graveyard, enjoining dead leaves to swirl about his feet.He steadied his lantern, squinting at the tombstones that stretched before him. They rose like apparitions, enlivened by the shadows of barren trees caught in the light. Twigs clutched at his hooded cloak. He pulled at them impatiently.


Stealing upon a humble grave, laid amidst murderers, paupers, and the unbaptized, he knelt to decipher the etchings.Worn by time, the tombstone almost denied him the name of its dead. He pushed back his cowl and traced the engraving with his finger.


Frate Domenicano Salvatore Ansaldo

1471—1550

Dio ha la compassione sulla sua anima maledetta


Swinging a canvas bag from his shoulder, he extractedfrom it a shovel and a pickax. He tossed his cloak over the tombstone. The night air felt good against his flesh as he labored to exhume the grave. He stopped once at a sound. His dark eyes scanned the eerie monuments leaning askew before him—silent witnesses watching without eyes, listening without ears, curious and apprehensive at his presence. Ignoring the uneasiness that stiffened the hair on his arms, he continued digging.


The shovel struck the coffin with a hollow thud. He fell to his knees, swept the dirt from the box, and grabbed the pickax, stabbing the corroded wood repeatedly until the lid lifted with no more resistance than a groan. The stench of mold permeated the air. He reached for the lantern, which reflected off the shaved crown of his head. Startled shadows leaped from the grave like souls before the judgment.

Death had paid the Dominican friar no homage. It had robbed him of his flesh and feasted on his bones. Fragments of the burial shroud remained adhered to their owner, as did gray hair to his skull. His gaping mouth, lacking several teeth, protested in silence the desecration of his grave.

Upon the corpse lay a wooden crucifix, the rosary entwining the fingers. The robber scanned the body, hesitantly patting the shroud. Finding nothing, the hope of discovery waned until he slipped his hands beneath the corpse. At his touch, the rib cage crumpled, rippling around his wrists as he delved, until his fingers grasped two scrolls. Shaking off the human remains, he placed the scrolls in the bag, climbed from the hole, and reburied the defiled dead.

He made haste to the monastery. In his cell, he barred the door and released his cowl to the floor. After lighting several candles to alleviate the darkness, he pulled the scrolls from the bag, gingerly spreading them across a wooden table. Though they had lain in the grave with corrupting flesh, he was amazed to find them unsullied, written upon with an odd shade of russet ink. He drew a candle closer.

Choosing one, he read:

Et ait ei tibi dabo potestatem hanc universam et

gloriam illorum quia mihi tradita sunt et cui volo

do illa tu ergo si adoraveris coram me erunt tua omnia.

The pounding of his heart quickened. The legend was true—he had found the scrolls. The Gregorian chant of distant choristers broke the early morning silence. He gasped—he had forgotten the Eucharist!

He glanced at the painting on the stone wall, the fair Madonna enfolding the Christ Child in her arms, then looked back at the scroll. The reddish ink was smudged. He peered at it suspiciously.

His eyes widened. Blood. It was written in blood.

Invitarme che cerca il potere e la fortuna nell’abbondanza. Invitarme che cerca i misteri del buio. Inviterà Lucifer.

Chills crept up his back. He crossed himself. Were not these words against the sacred Scripture? It was blasphemy. Heresy. Was he not risking his soul? Yet the words were so clear; did they not offer him the world? He glanced at the Madonna and Child again, then back at the scroll. The garnet rosary about his neck tapped against the table.

Chiunque invita Lucifer offrirà la sua anima, e ciò del secondo maschio nella sua casa per tutte le generazioni.


All the power of the world and the glory thereof was at his fingertips—his, Luccio Frattarelli—the abbot of the church of the Spirito Santo. With the heightening of his voice, the words fell from his lips: La mia fedeltà, la mia anima, il mio corpo che do a Lucifer. Invito Lucifer a essere il mio padrone. Visito il suo demone potentemente, Il Governatore del Rotolo, vivere nel mio corpo.

Death took Luccio by surprise. The scroll slipped from his hands as he grasped at his heart. He tumbled backward over a chair, his sandaled feet kicking the floor in wild succession. A trembling cold seized his frame, congealing the blood in his veins. Then, struck with the conviction of his fate, his eyes opened in terror upon the Madonna and Child, and his breath ceased.

Moments passed as he lay there, his body not feeling the cold morning air. Then, a blistering gust swirled through the cell, scorching the wood, singeing the cowl, burning the painted images beyond recognition.

The eyelids began to flutter, the eyebrows to twitch, the chest to rise and fall with regular breathing. The muscles in the arms and legs stretched as if released from bondage.

When the eyes opened, the life behind them was not that of Luccio Frattarelli.


Chapter One

Winter, 1931

Colorado, United States of America

A scream escaped the boy’s lips. The startling pain across his left ear and cheek jerked his head to the side. His eyes snapped open. Looking around with the shocked confusion of broken sleep, he cringed to see the black pillar leaning over his bed.

“I ain’t done nothin’, Pa!”

“Get up.”

He glanced out the window. A breath of air shook the broken pane, scraping the ice-frosted curtains against each other. Beyond them, the stars were bright against the sky.

“I ain’t heard the rooster—”

Even as he spoke, he threw up his arms to shield his face. The hand came down hard against his head. It knocked his arms out of the way and found his throbbing ear once more.

“Get up, or I’ll throw you down those stairs.”

Shielding his ear, he strove to sit up. It wasn’t fast enough. That hand seized him—“No!”—yanked him from his narrow bed—“Not the stairs again!”—and flung him toward the bedroom door. The blanket strangled his feet. He reeled across the floor, collided with the washstand, and fell on his back. Wresting away the blanket, he just escaped his father’s boots as they stomped an inch from his fingers.

“Start the fire.”

Coiled against the wall, he watched his father’s rigid silhouette leave the room. He listened to the tread on the staircase, the steps through the kitchen below, and the slam of the back door. All was silent. Only then did he move. He stood on trembling legs, the warped floorboards creaking beneath his weight.

Testing the movement of his jaw, he cupped his ear and swallowed against the pain that traveled down his neck. His face felt hot.

“You all right?” a voice whispered from the darkness.

He looked at his two older brothers lying huddled together under a single blanket. The head of the oldest lifted, his youthful profile barely discernable.

“Yeah.” The boy rubbed the bones of his chest through a tear in his long underwear.

“Stay clear of Pa.” The profile sank back into the bed.

“Today’s the day Ma died.”

The recollection shocked him. He felt sick to his stomach and wondered how long that pillar had stood over his bed. Picking up his overalls from the floor, he maneuvered his feet into the threadbare pant legs. While securing the straps to the bib with safety pins, he slipped his naked feet into his boots, scrunching his toes against the cracked soles.

Not having heard the squeak of the back door, he went downstairs without fear, pulling a woolen coat across his shoulders. Finding a lantern burning in the kitchen, he took it and stepped outside.

The November chill seeped through his clothes. He looked at the moon, blew a warm stream of air from his mouth toward it, and watched the steam evaporate. The moon’s glow beautified the farm to a shimmering, snowy landscape, but he saw no beauty there, only the skeleton of the plow, the empty corral, the sinister corner behind the chicken coop—a myriad of hiding places where his father might lurk. It was then his fear returned; somewhere in that darkness was his father.

He crept along the snow-covered path, afraid the sound of his boots would give him away. Placing the lantern by the door of the woodshed, he paused to wipe his bangs out of his eyes, his gaze traveling to the barn set against the open prairie, an expanse of blackness where nothing moved. A lantern burned within, emitting light between the loose-fitting boards. He heard the horse’s neigh, the worried screech of a chicken, and the thud of an ax against wood. He had found his father.

Snatching an armload of wood, he ran back inside the house. As he hurried to build a fire in the kitchen stove, his mind raced to find places where he could hide. The root cellar?

No, too easy to be found. What about the barn down the road, or the lake? Yeah, the lake. He could break through the ice. Maybe if he caught some fish, Pa wouldn’t beat him that night.

No sooner had he decided where to run than the warmth of the fire encouraged him to linger. Daring to place an additional stick on the quivering flames, he dragged a chair from the table before the stove. He would run when he heard his father’s step on the back porch, but for now, the glow of the crackling wood was too good to leave.

He fell asleep.

He did not hear the steps. He did not hear the door open. For a surreal moment, he hovered between dreaming and waking, feeling the brush of his mother’s apron, the smell of bread. Then the door slammed. A rush of air stirred his hair like an icy hand. With a gasp, he spun around. Gazing up into the beardless face, an image flashed in his mind of the scarecrow suspended in the cornfield—that frayed figure no threat of storm could move. He feared its claw-like arms that stretched out for an embrace; he knew well the terror of that embrace. He bolted from the chair, knocking it over.

“Pick it up.”

The words stopped him cold. Returning, he righted the chair, keeping his eyes averted and his hands ready to push it forward if his father made any abrupt movements.

“Sit down.”

He teetered on his feet, debating whether to run out the back door or the front, when he noticed what was in his father’s hands. In one dangled the downy body of a freshly killed chicken; in the other, the bloody cleaver.

He sat down.

“Remember your Ma?” His father tossed the chicken and the cleaver on the table.

“Yeah.” The sight of the headless chicken set off a nervous spasm in his stomach.

“It’s been three years. I reckoned you’d forgot.”

An anxious moment of silence hung between them.

Risking a glance, he found his father’s unblinking gaze fixed on him. Yellow flames from the lantern quivered in his green eyes. When he spoke, his mouth revealed the bottom row of his stained teeth.

“She was a good woman. Kept this place nice. Didn’t have much, but she made it stretch.”

Removing his straw hat, he began to pace the floor. The sound of his boots scraping the wood sent a shudder down the boy’s spine. He looked back at the chicken.

“I miss her cookin’. I miss her gettin’ mad when I tracked in dirt. I miss watchin’ her wash her hair and dryin’ it front of the stove. She never fussed over nothin’—” he stopped his deliberate tread, “—except you. ‘My baby’s sick,’ she’d say.”

The hat slipped from his soiled fingers to the floor. He leaned close to the boy’s ear.

“Then you got the fever.”

His father’s breath on his neck caused him to look around wildly. His shoulders flinched with expectation.

“She made me sell the cow to pay the doctor. I told her she already had two strong boys. Better to keep the cow. Then she got the fever.”

The hand seized the boy’s neck and squeezed.

“She died…and you got better.”

With a jerk, his father spun him around, knocking the chair over. He lifted the boy close to his face.

“Why ain’t it you rottin’ in that graveyard?”

“I’m sorry, Pa.” Tears stung the boy’s eyes. His chin quivered.

“I should’ve drowned you in the river like a runt.”

The fist rose like a pendulum.

“No! I’m sorry!”

It hailed on his head, cutting short his screams, blurring his vision with flashes of red. He felt his body being thrashed back and forth. The hand twisting his clothing nearly choked off his breath.

“Stop it, Pa!”

The beating stopped. Warmth trickled from his nose and mouth as he sagged in his father’s grip. Through the spinning room, he saw his brothers in the doorway in their long underwear, their brown hair mussed.

The oldest stepped forward. “Let him go. It ain’t his fault, and you know it.”

“He killed her as true as I’m standin’ here. He’s got every bit of it comin’.”

“It ain’t his fault, and beatin’ him ain’t gonna bring her back. Nothin’s bringin’ her back. She’s dead.”

Staggering as if struck from behind, he pressed the boy backward against the table, his neck on the chicken’s carcass.

“I know! I know, but she was everything…all I had…since we were kids…all I wanted.” Anguish creased his tanned forehead. Sobs he could no longer control heaved in his chest until he laid his head on the boy’s chest, wailing.

The boy dared not move. He shot his brothers a terrified plea with his eyes, but they, too, stood motionless.

“It ain’t right that she died.” He lifted his head, his face flushed, wet, the veins in his forehead and neck pulsating. “It ain’t right that he lived.”

He seized the cleaver and lifted it high. The boys shrieked in unison, “No!”

Still caught in the trap of that great hand, the boy threw up his arms. Light glinted off the cleaver as it plummeted, its edge slicing across his uplifted palm. He felt no pain, just the keen sensation of his flesh opening, sending a streak of blood across his father’s face.

The cleaver rose again. His brothers rushed forward. In a skirmishing blur of hands, he saw the cleaver pushed aside. His father reared back, shouting. Saliva dripped from his lips. One brother fell to the floor. The cleaver rose again. He closed his eyes. Screaming. A crack. A grunt.

He felt himself pulled to the floor by the hand that would not let go. Blood sprayed in every direction as he kicked and screamed, helpless until his brothers freed him and dragged him to the other side of the kitchen.

“Stop squirmin’!”

The oldest held his brother’s wrist, forcing open his clenched fingers to inspect the gash while the other tried to soothe him. Too terrified to be calmed, he continued to scream, to struggle, even though his father lay motionless on the floor, the fire poker beside him. Turning him away from the sight, they held him close until he settled into a quiet sob. The oldest then brought him to his feet. Grabbing a rag from the table, he wiped the tears that rolled down the boy’s cheeks.

“Listen,” he said, wrapping the rag around the bleeding hand. “You need your wits. Run away. He’ll kill you next time. Go to town. Find Uncle Harald. Here’s your cap.”

Their father groaned. All stared at him for a silent moment, then rushed to the door.

“Run fast. Don’t tell nobody your name. Don’t let the sheriff catch you neither. He’ll bring you back or put you in the orphanage and work you till you drop dead.”

His brothers hugged him, then sent him out into the cold. He ran with one glance back, one final look at his brothers standing in the doorway. Into the darkness he ran, leaving a scattered trail of tears and blood behind.


Friday, December 12, 2008

Friday Finds





This is my first time posting about Friday Finds, but I have been keeping a list in a spreadsheet of those that look interesting. This week I am going to list those that I did not have the wisdom to keep the listing where I found them at - so, in no particular order:



A Secret History by Donna Tartt - I had this on reserve at our library, and just picked it up today - but I have no idea why.... We will have to see if it is good!




My Mother is a French Fry and Further Proof of my Fuzzed Up Life by Colleen Syder - This one sounded good, and my sister used to call me French Fry when we were growing up.. So it made me think that my kids could say My Mother is a French Fry..




The Humming of Numbers by Joni Sensel - Again, just sounded good, but do not know on whose recommendation - and I think it has a great cover!



And last but not least -

The House on Tradd Street by Karen White.

100+ Reading Challenge



The 100+ Reading Challenge will be hosted by J.Kaye's Book Blog. Please go to the challenge website for complete rules - a few guidelines are below:
1) You can join anytime as long as you don’t start reading your books prior to 2009.

2) This challenge is for 2009 only. The last day to have all your books read is December 31, 2009.

3) You can join anytime between now and December 31, 2009.

4) All books count: children’s, YA, adults, fiction, non-fiction, how-tos, etc.

Since children's books count - I should be able to finish this one, but I am only going to use the children's books when I have less than 9 books/month.

  1. - Watcher in the Woods - Robert Liparulo
  2. - Gatekeepers - Robert Liparulo
  3. - Be Strong and Curvaceous - Shelley Adina
  4. - Walking with Wolf - Kay Chornook & Wolf Guindon
  5. - The Road - Cormac McCarthy
  6. - The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
  7. - The House on Mango Street - Sandra Cisneros
  8. - The Red Siren - M.L. Tyndall
  9. - Black Water - Joyce Carol Oates
  10. - Grace for the Afflicted - Matthew Stanford, PhD
  11. - Scream for Me - Karen Rose
  12. - For the Love of Pete - Julia Harper
  13. - Lost in Las Vegas - Melody Carlson
  14. - Holes - Louis Sachar
  15. -Scrapping Plans - Rebeca Seitz
  16. -The Valentine Edition - Robin Shope
  17. -It's All About Us - Shelley Adina
  18. -Lessons From San Quentin - Bill Dallas
  19. - John's Quest - Cecelia Dowdy
  20. -Simple Wishes - Lisa Dale
  21. -The Spring of Candy Apples - Debbie Viguie
  22. - Trail of Crumbs - Kim Sunee
  23. - I Do Again - Cheryl and Jeff Scruggs
  24. - The Fruit of My Lipstick - Shelley Adina
  25. - Age Before Beauty - Virginia Smith
  26. - The Kiss - Ted Dekker and Erin Healy
  27. - This Side of Heaven - Karen Kingsbury
  28. - The Kingmaking - Helen Hollick
  29. - The Stones - Eleanor Gustafson
  30. - Scream - Mike Dellosso
  31. - Diamonds in the Shadow - Caroline B. Cooney
  32. - Marked by Passion - Kate Perry
  33. - Katt's in the Cradle - Ginger Kolbaba and Christy Scannell
  34. - Deadly Charm - Claudia Mair Burney
  35. - Yesterday's Embers - Deborah Raney
  36. - Lady Anne and the Howl in the Dark - Donna Lea Simpson
  37. - An Offer You Can't Refuse - Jill Mansell
  38. - Rachel's Tears - Beth Nimmo and Darrell Scott
  39. - Fatal Illusions - Adam Blumer
  40. - The Girl She Used To Be - David Cristofano
  41. - Wicked Lovely - Melissa Marr
  42. - The Lost Hours - Karen White
  43. - Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince - J.K. Rowling
  44. - Boneman's Daughter - Ted Dekker
  45. - So Not Happening - Jenny B. Jones
  46. - Murder, Mayhem and a Fine Man - Claudia Mair Burney
  47. - The Noticer - Andy Andrews
  48. - New York Debut - Melody Carlson
  49. - Wild Highland Magic - Kendra Leigh Castle
  50. - Fire Me - Libby Malin
  51. - Dear Mom - Melody Carlson
  52. - Madewell Brown - Rick Collignon
  53. - Mama's Got a Fake I.D. - Caryn Dahlstrand Rivedeneira
  54. - Always Watching - Brandilyn and Amberly Collins
  55. - The Lake That Stole Children - Glenn Clark Douglas
  56. - The Four Corners of the Sky - Michael Malone
  57. - Pleasure Unbound - Larissa Ione
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Thursday, December 11, 2008

9 Books for '09 Challenge



9 Books for 2009

This challenge is set up so you can read some books in your TBR (To Be Read) Stacks
RULES
Open to anyone, whether you have a blog or not!
No need to register or to announce what you are going to read.
Start in any category that you wish.
2 books from this reading challenge can be used in other reading challenges.
Just post in the comment section.
The genre of the books can be ANYTHING (fiction or non-fiction), but it must be decent (because you have to write reviews about the books).
Other reading materials (graphic novels, poetry, museum catalogs, art books, zines etc.) are OK.
The book must already be in your bookcase or storage area.
The Challenge starts 12/27/08 to 12/27/09. (I hate to begin anything on January 1st).
You can post starting on 12/27/08.
Format of work can be paper, audio, or electronic
Please go to challenge host here for complete rules and sites to post reviews on.

  1. Long - The Kingmaking - Helen Hollick
  2. Free - Be Strong and Curvaceous - Shelley Adina
  3. Dusty
  4. Used
  5. Letter - Kiss by Ted Dekker and Erin Healy (I am using K because my initials are KKKH)
  6. Strange - The House on Mango Street - Sandra Cisneros
  7. Distance - Walking with Wolf - Kay Chornook & Wolf Guindon
  8. Alive or Not - The Road - Cormac McCarthy
  9. Cover - The Valentine Edition - Robin Shope



Booking Through Thursday


This is a weekly meme hosted by Deb here.


1. Do you get to read as much as you WANT to read?

(I’m guessing #1 is an easy question for everyone?)

2. If you had (magically) more time to read–what would you read?


I absolutely do not get as much time to read as I would like - lately I spend too much time online. I also love to do needlepoint, cross stitch, knit, crochet, etc - and there is not enough time for that either. Combine that with a 16 year old girl, 14 year old girl and 4 year old boy.. and activities never end! (Wouldn't trade them in for anything though!) Seems like I read the most in the bathroom (ok moms - raise your hand if you spend more time than necessary in the bathroom just so you can read!)


If I had more time to read - I would spend it reading with my teenagers. When they were young I worked full time and didn't get the opportunity to read with them as I do my youngest. I would like to introduce them to all the girl hood classics like Black Beauty and Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm and even The Little House on the Prairie series. They are both devouring the Twilight series now - which is saying something as neither one of them are serious readers.


It's Your Call - by Lawrence Powell



It is time to play a Wild Card! Every now and then, a book that I have chosen to read is going to pop up as a FIRST Wild Card Tour. Get dealt into the game! (Just click the button!) Wild Card Tours feature an author and his/her book's FIRST chapter!

You never know when I might play a wild card on you!





Today's Wild Card author is:


and the book:


It’s Your Call

Yorkshire Publishing; 1st edition (September 5, 2008)


ABOUT THE AUTHOR:


Lawrence Powell is Pastor of Agape Family Worship Center in Rahway, New Jersey; a multi-ethnic ministry, that is home to thousands throughout the Tri-state region. In partnership with Oral Roberts University, he is also founder of Pneuma Life School of Ministry, an accredited teaching and training institute, equipping Christian men and women for missions, outreach, and church planting. Powell is a much sought-after speaker and respected Biblical teacher. He holds a Bachelor’s degree from Rutgers University and a Master’s degree from Oral Roberts University. He resides in New Jersey with his wife Vanessa, and their three lovely children.

Visit the author's website.

Product Details:

List Price: $ 19.99
Hardcover: 208 pages
Publisher: Yorkshire Publishing; 1st edition (September 5, 2008)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 0881442917
ISBN-13: 978-0881442915

AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:


Face it. You’re the One for the Job!


“Not called” did you say? “Not heard the call,” I think you should say.

~ William Booth Founder of the Salvation Army


It was a clear sunny day and I could not have been any more than about 5 or 6 years old. I was out in the backyard playing alone in the warm summer breeze. I do not remember why I was alone, but if you ask my mother, she will say that my sister and I used to get into petty squabbles. Our peaceful times of playfulness would somehow decline into: No! Stop! Move! Get off! Mine! Ouch! Mommy! And then, we were separated…for safety purposes of course.


This particular day in the backyard was probably no different.


I had an active imagination and I did not really mind playing alone. My “imaginary friends” and I climbed onto my little blue and white, double-seat glider swing set, and I had a captive audience.

That day I was performing live in concert, making up one song after another. As I was belting out my original tunes underneath the midday blue sky, I remember hearing myself repeatedly singing these simple lyrics: “Nobody knows me well like the Lord.” Now, at the time, I did not realize the profundity of the words. After all, I was just a kid. But somehow, I remember the lyrics so vividly. As I sat there on that swing, I began to sense the presence of the Lord. Everything grew quiet and still, and then, something peculiar happened. The heavens opened up and I heard a voice from heaven saying, “This is my Beloved Son in Whom I am well pleased!” No, no, no…I’m sorry, wrong story. That was Jesus.


No, really, I did have an unexplainable encounter with the Lord that day. It was like the old saints used to say, “Somethin’ got a hold of me.” It reminds me of the Old Testament story of the young prophet Samuel. God called him long before he knew how to distinctly recognize and respond to the voice of God (1 Samuel 3:4-9). Reflecting on that moment in the backyard, I know now with a surety, the Spirit of God was depositing a seed in me, predestined to bloom at a future time.


Encountering God


I grew up in and around the church, but early on I did not have a clear understanding of God. And I certainly was not aware that I had been divinely selected to touch nations with the message of the Gospel. But by degrees, the Holy Spirit would beckon me more and more, and over the years I came to know His voice better. I wonder, do you remember when you first sensed the majesty, power, and call of God on your life? Where were you? What were you doing? You may not have understood it at the time, and if someone asked you to explain it, you would not have been able to put into words the depth of the encounter.


It is similar to the blind man in the book of St John, who was challenged regarding the healing he received from Jesus. Although he could not explain the experience well enough to satisfy his detractors, his response was simple yet profound. “One thing I know: that though I was blind, now I see” (John 9:25b NKJV). After all these years, I’ve still not found words to sufficiently express the awesomeness of an authentic God-encounter. But one thing I know, though I was blind, now I see. Take this opportunity to reflect on the moment God began to open your eyes. Remember how you felt? Now softly thank Him for altering the very course of your existence.


His presence changes you, doesn’t it? Of course it does. Any true visitation from God alters the way you see, think, and experience the world. Although the full revelation of His will does not happen immediately, once He deposits His purpose in your heart, you will never be the same again. For me, it was a process that occurred over time. I had to grow, learn, and mature before I could begin fulfilling the call of God on my life. The same is true for you. Don’t be discouraged just because you are unable to fully grasp His purpose and plan for your life right now. All you need to know is He has one.


You may not feel that you have a specific calling, and yet, you do. Or, you may not feel like you’re qualified, and experienced enough to do what He’s chosen you for, but don’t worry. He will provide you with everything you need to fulfill your life’s purpose.


Perceive the Call of God


There is a story found in Mark 8:23–25 about a blind man in Bethsaida, who was brought to Jesus by a group of people. They were begging on his behalf for healing. Jesus took the blind man by the hand and led him out of the town, much the way He leads you and me. He takes us by the hand when we cannot see our way clearly. That’s one thing I love about our God. He will never leave you alone, groping in darkness. He will always be there for you.


Jesus began the process of opening this blind man’s eyes. The Bible says, “And when He had spit on his eyes and put His hands on him, He asked him if he saw anything. And he looked up and said, ‘I see men like trees, walking’” (8:23b–24 NKJV).


It’s important to recognize that there was nothing lacking in Jesus’ power, only in the man’s perspective. The very first time Jesus touched him, he miraculously received his sight. Now, Jesus had to clarify his perspective.


Sometimes, God is dealing with you and showing you things, yet, you don’t possess a clear view of His vision for your life. But if you stay in God’s presence, He will reveal His will to you. Like this blind man, your vision may be clarified in gradual stages; nevertheless, God will complete the work He has begun in you. Look at what happens in the story. “Then He put His hands on his eyes again, and made him look up. And he was restored and saw everyone clearly” (8:25 NKJV). I speak victory over your life today and declare that, if you can look up with eyes of faith, God will cause you to see what you were not able to see before!


God wants you to recognize His call on your life and begin viewing things from His perspective. Are you ready? Let’s continue along the path to perceiving and understanding your calling more clearly.


As you embark upon your own journey, remember to keep your focus fixed on Jesus, the author and finisher of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). Only He can show you who you really are. I’m not saying that there aren’t valuable books, trainings, and other resources available to assist you in enhancing your life in some way. In fact, I encourage you to be a life-long learner and seek out practical tools to help you grow and advance. Be aware though; you cannot depend upon self-help books, advice columns, and the well-meaning opinions of close friends and family members, to help you understand and fulfill your Divine calling.


Outside of God, there is no real revelation of truth. His purpose and plan is the only one that will help you live the abundant life He intends for every believer. You may wonder how can you begin truly understanding your purpose and calling. There is a clue found in the book of Ephesians 1:11. The word “purpose” in this passage of Scripture is the Greek word “prothesis,” meaning “to lay out beforehand,” much like the blueprint of a building. Thus, it conveys the exciting idea that your life has been designed with forethought, predetermination, and deliberate intention. (See also Ephesians

2:19–22.) Isn’t that wonderful to know you are no accident? You are not here by happenstance.


The Lord, the Master Architect, has created you with a specific plan in mind. No one else understands the intricacies of your design quite like the One who created the blueprint. This is precisely why positive thinking, dreaming, goal-setting, planning, and networking, without God is grossly overestimated. Remember, “Except the LORD build the house, they labor in vain that build it” (Psalm 127:1a).


Time in His Presence


God is the only legitimate source for discovering your purpose and calling. As you come honestly and humbly before the Father in pursuit of His will for your life, the Spirit will teach you all you need to know. Paul prayed to this end, “that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints” (Ephesians 1:17–18 NKJV). Please understand—the wisdom and revelation for which Paul prayed only comes through time spent in the presence of the Lord.


The more you are in His presence, the more you learn His voice. The more you learn His voice, the more you understand His will. As you grow in your understanding of God’s Word, you will begin walking out the steps He has ordered for you before the foundation of the world. You indeed have a set path and it’s your job to seek God for direction. This is something I learned early on in my personal pilgrimage. “Counsel in the heart of man is like deep water, But a man of understanding will draw it out” (Proverbs 20:5 NKJV).


Growing up in the church, I remember having a sincere desire to understand the concept of spirituality and what role it played in my life. As I matured, I moved from mere curiosity to genuine interest, and finally, to a deep longing to know God more intimately. Having said that, allow me a moment of transparency. In all honesty, it was the tyranny of my “Dear Mother” that kept me in church every time the doors opened. No, I’m kidding…well, half kidding.


In the Pentecostal church I grew up in, Sunday service was an all day affair. The old saints used to sing a song that said, “Put yo’ time in. Pay day is comin’ after while.” And on Sundays, I think they meant it—literally. I often preferred going to church with my father, because at the particular Baptist church he attended, morning service began at eleven o’clock sharp and it was over at one o’clock on the dot. But don’t get me wrong, even though it was only a couple of hours, it felt more like the long, hot summer road trips we took from New Jersey to Florida each summer for vacation. During these excursions, the only question on my mind was, “Are we there yet?”


If I could have combined the excitement of my mother’s Pentecostal church with the abbreviated schedule of Daddy’s Baptist church, it would have been a near perfect worship experience!


Although I did not enjoy the excessively extended hours at Mommy’s church, I had grown quite accustomed to, and fond of, the energy and exuberance of the Pentecostal style of worship. The distinct rhythmic beating of the tambourine and drums, the syncopated sounds of the Hammond B-3 organ, and the lively demonstrations of praise, were thrilling. But I would soon discover that the thrill was far more than the music.


Little did I know then, you cannot be in the presence of the Lord and not be impacted by the experience. A transformation was taking place in me before my very eyes. God was actually molding me into a vessel of honor to be used by Him, but I did not perceive it at the time. Even as you are reading this book, God is working on you— reshaping your mentality and calling you to a new place in Him. You may not fully understand His plan at the moment, however, just as the aforementioned blind man did, you too must grab hold of His hand. Let Him lead you out of your Bethsaida into a new dimension of revelation and clarity.


Accept the Call of God


Whenever you branch out and chart a new course along the road God has laid out for you, it is natural to feel some uncertainty. It seems so tough at the time, because you are challenged to do things you have never done before. All kinds of thoughts run through your mind. You wonder if you are really capable of doing what God is challenging you to do. You know you don’t want to remain in your current position. At the same time, you feel too afraid to go to an unfamiliar place. You also do not have a single ounce of tangible evidence that God is even speaking to you. How do you get to the point of fully accepting the call of God?


Abraham, who is called the Father of Faith, would probably give you a very concise answer. It would sound something like, “Just do it.” How do you think he must have felt when God told him, “Get out of your country, From your family And from your father’s house, To a land that I will show you” (Genesis 12:1 NKJV). Sure, Abraham obeyed, but the decision certainly wasn’t an easy one. He was being pushed to embark upon a new journey, with most of the details missing. Sound familiar? You see, God knows the end from the beginning. You just have to trust Him. The most important thing is that Abraham obeyed God, accepted the call, and stepped out in faith. God expects no less of you.


You may not have all the particulars. However, God will unfold His plan as you progress along the path He’s chosen for you. If you are waiting for Him to perfectly map out the course before you respond to His call, then you’ll be left waiting forever. He develops and strengthens your faith as you walk with Him daily. But you have got to start walking.


Whether you are launching a ministry, business, career, product, service or other venture; the same is true of each. You have to start somewhere. Although you may not have all the answers, that cannot be your excuse for doing nothing. You will no doubt make some mistakes; it happens to the best of us. Still, you can’t let that stop you.


I remember one day, I got a call from my good friend, Pastor Donnie McClurkin. He is a world renowned Gospel singer, songwriter, and recording artist. On this occasion he was invited as a special guest at a White House Christmas dinner and invited me to tag along! I thought, why not? What an opportunity. I had not visited the Capitol since my ninth grade school trip. Of course, I wanted to make sure I was appropriately dressed. I asked what type of clothing I should wear and Donnie told me it was a black tie affair.


On the day of the event, I made sure I looked the part. I got a fresh hair cut. I put on my black Versace frock coat, custom-tailored shirt and pants. If I had to say so myself, it looked as if I had just fallen off the cover of a GQ Magazine. I must admit, I was feeling pretty good about going to the White House that day. When I walked, it was as if I had my own theme music playing in the background. It was that serious!


We arrived at the White House, went through the security check, and then, on to the room where the dinner was being held. Quickly, my eyes spanned the room. Then, the record scratched. My theme music abruptly stopped. And I knew…Donnie had not been given the correct information about the evening’s dress code. Everywhere I looked, the men were wearing blue and grey business suits.


At that very moment, I knew the answer to the riddle, “What’s black and white and red all over?” Me. I felt my face flush. My palms got sweaty. If I could have slid under a table without being noticed, I would have. To say that I was embarrassed, would be putting it mildly. I was utterly mortified. As I stood there in my formal wear, I expected someone to hand me a serving tray at any moment. Clearly, I looked like a resident butler, much like Geoffrey from The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air.


In that instant, I had two options. Either I could play “Cinderfella” and storm out of there like it was midnight. Or, I could laugh about it and still choose to enjoy the evening. After I got over the initial shock of it all, I chose the latter. Consequently, I met great leaders from around the country, took pictures with the President and First Lady, and no one seemed too put off by the fancy threads. Despite being overdressed, to my surprise, the evening turned out great. As the lyrics to one of Donnie’s hit songs say, “We fall down, but we get up.” If you don’t always get things right, it is not the end of the world. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and “Keep on truckin’”, like Eddie Kendricks used to say.


There may be a few missing details along your path, but don’t worry. Things will still work out. Rather than focusing on all you don’t know and how out of place you may feel, begin to see the opportunity in front of you. Surely, I could have high-tailed it out of there, but what good would that have done? It really was not that major. At least I can see that now. While it was happening, however, it appeared much more important than it actually was.


Similarly, when you are called to take on a new position, it may seem very intimidating at the time. You may not feel prepared, or qualified. Still, you have been singled out for the job, so you might as well face it. Own it. Trust me, I know it can be difficult to overcome paralyzing fear and the haunting sense of your own inadequacy; accept the job anyway. Ignore that nagging voice whispering in your ear telling you, “God didn’t say that. He’s not really speaking to you. It’s all inside your head.” Although you may not feel completely confident, trust God anyway.


Are you familiar with the story of Gideon, the fifth judge of Israel? He was challenged by God to go into battle and defeat the Midianites, on behalf of the nation of Israel (Judges 6:36–38). When Gideon received his assignment, he was ambivalent about the mission. Gideon was not sure that he should be the one leading Israel into battle. After all, of his own admission, he was the least likely choice. He could not imagine why God would hand-pick him for the job.


Gideon was by no means a great warrior and naturally he was confused about why God called him to complete a task that was way out of his league. He was very distraught about the whole thing and could not resist sharing his dilemma with God. Gideon thought that he should probably give God a heads up to help Him understand why choosing him was such a huge mistake.


He said, “O my Lord, how can I save Israel? Indeed my clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father’s house” (Judges 6:15 NKJV). What did he think God was going to say? “Oh Gideon, you’re so right. What was I thinking? I had no idea about your deficiency. Whew! That was a close call.” Now, of course, God was not going to agree with Gideon’s excuses, just as He’s not going to agree with yours. Here is what God actually said, “Surely I will be with you, and you shall defeat the Midianites as one man” (Judges 6:16 NKJV).


Let me help you with something. God is not put off by your (what I call) leastlikeliness. It does not matter that you have been considered least likely to succeed, least likely to get the promotion, least likely to survive in business, or least likely to make an impact in ministry. God has called you and He is on your side. It’s time to change your attitude and your words. Yes, you are the least likely; that’s right. You are the least likely to fail, least likely to quit, and least likely to be defeated. You are more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus (Romans 8:37 NKJV).


It does not matter if you feel unqualified. Being unqualified does not disqualify you from being called by God. He is not deterred by your lack of experience and credentials. God is not limited by your natural limitations and He is in no way restricted by your restrictions. All you have to do is accept His call and He will take care of the rest. As the story continues, we learn that Gideon got cold feet before it was time to go to battle. He asked God to provide some kind of sign to let him know if He had truly called him to embark upon what seemed to be a kamikaze mission.


“So Gideon said to God, ‘If You will save Israel by my hand as You have said—look, I shall put a fleece of wool on the threshing floor; if there is dew on the fleece only, and it is dry on all the ground, then I shall know that You will save Israel by my hand, as You have said’” (Judges 6:36–37 NKJV). Verse 38 of that same chapter tells us, that God indeed provided the sign exactly as Gideon requested and everyone was happy, right? No. Not quite.


Actually, verse 39 shows us that Gideon still was not satisfied. He still needed more proof. He asked God for another sign. Essentially, Gideon wanted God to give him a confirmation, for his confirmation. He knew that he was in no way cut out to do what God called him to do.


God did not get frustrated with Gideon; rather, He provided him with another sign to demonstrate that He had indeed called Gideon to do His will. When God calls you, He always puts you in positions you feel woefully inadequate to occupy. Not to worry, because whomever He calls, He equips to do the job—and do it well. Israel went on to win that battle against the Midianites, because Gideon was finally obedient to the call of God.


I’m sure you can relate to the emotions he felt. You may be experiencing a situation in your life where you need God to confirm that He is indeed with you. God has strategically orchestrated this moment to let you know that He is going to complete His work through you. You do not have to fear. He is ushering you into your destiny.


God is speaking to you and He will not be silenced. He is ministering to you right now and He wants you to embrace what He is doing. His call on your life is for specific reason, a distinct purpose, and a set time. God is calling you. Trust me. He will stop at nothing to get your attention.


Think for a moment. Have you been bombarded with confirmations of God’s promises? Has He spoken to you in dreams, in visions, or through others? Be sensitive. Be open. Be prepared to fulfill the call. It is time to do what He has instructed you to do.


I know that you, like Gideon, just want to be sure. You want to “know, that you know, that you know” it is truly God. How many times and ways does God have to reveal Himself, before you will say yes to His call? When the voice of the Lord spoke to Isaiah and said, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?” Isaiah told God, “Here am I! Send me” (Isaiah 6:8 NKJV). God wants you to tell Him the same thing, “Here am I! Send me.”


When I was coming up in the Church of God In Christ, we would repeatedly say, “Yes Lord,” and “Have your way Lord,” in times of prayer and worship. That simply meant we were assuming a position of complete submission. We were giving up our own will in exchange for His. If you are going to experience God’s best, you must strive to let God have His way in every area of your life. Give Him the opportunity to speak to your heart. Remember the old hymn that says, “Have Thine own way Lord, have Thine own way. Thou art the potter, I am the clay. Mold me and make me, after Thy will. Whilst I am waiting, yielded and still?” (Have Thine Own Way, Lord, Adelaide A. Pollard and George C. Stebbins, Hope Publishing 1907, 1935). Let God know that you willing to receive everything He has for you and open to the new dimensions to which He is calling you.


Pursue the Call of God


When I began growing in my understanding of God, I knew that His call was on my life, but I still wrestled and wondered, “Could I really be called? Me, Lawrence Powell? Could God really use me for His glory? Could I be singled out to make a difference in the world?” You may ask some of these same kinds of questions. I want to assure you the answer is yes! God has great plans for your life—much bigger than you can imagine. So big, in fact, they would overwhelm you if He revealed them all at once. You are going to have to passionately pursue the call through intense prayer and supplication.


I recall my earlier days, attending graduate school at Oral Roberts University. I was experiencing a time of tremendous spiritual growth and development in my walk with the Lord. Still, I was seeking to understand exactly how God wanted to use me. One day, while I was in my room alone, I went into my literal prayer closet for a time of deep reflection, introspection, and prayer. That day, I was intent on asking God for direction. I was so full of questions and I really needed to gain a grasp of what He was calling me to do. I began to pour my heart out to Him. I said, “God, whatever You want me to do, I’ll do, but I need to know that it’s You speaking to me.”


I diligently sought the Lord and pushed past my fears, my anxieties, and my concerns. God spoke to me and assured me of His plans for my life. However, this was not the first time, nor would it be the last, that I sought God for His direction and confirmation. You see, I had a constant battle raging in my mind that kept me feeling uneasy, uncertain, and unsure about the path I should take. But I never stopped pursuing His call, even when I didn’t understand.


Don’t worry just because you don’t completely understand everything about your purpose today. You can still apprehend what you cannot comprehend. Simply respond to God as young Samuel did by saying, “Speak, for Your servant hears” (1 Samuel 3:10b NKJV). This kind of act puts you in the right place to receive a word from the Lord.


Pause for a moment now and sincerely ask God to supernaturally develop your ability to discern His voice. Once you recognize His call and become more open to hearing from Him, you will realize that He wants to take you under His wing as His dear child and impart His purpose into your heart. From this day forward, become resolved as never before to pursue your calling intentionally, passionately, and relentlessly.


When it comes to going after God’s will for your life, you must possess an unquenchable thirst, unwavering perseverance, and unyielding commitment. Showing up on Sunday mornings out of

habit and mere obligation is not sufficient. Reading a few verses on a bi-monthly basis from your over-sized, large-print family Bible on the living room table won’t cut it. An occasional, “Now I lay me down to sleep” prayer is not enough. Quoting, “Jesus wept” (John 11:35), will hardly sustain you during your times of uncertainty.


Pursuit is the proof of desire. Thus, if you approach your quest with a nonchalant attitude, devoid of the true passion it takes to ultimately realize God’s plan for your life, you will be met with frustration. Your yearning to understand His calling must infiltrate the very core of your being and cause you to seek Him with true sincerity and fervency in prayer. As you seek God, He will reveal the mysteries of His will in a way that only He can. But you must remain steadfast. You can do it! Just the fact that you are reading this book shows that you have what it takes to overcome adversity, pursue God, and fulfill your destiny.


I cannot tell you how many times I cried out to God from the depths of my being, as I struggled to know exactly what He wanted me to do. I heard His beckoning. I sensed His will. I wanted more clarity, but the answers continually eluded me. I knew God was leading me on a path, but like the proverbial “carrot on a stick,” the answers I so desperately craved, seemed to be dangling just beyond my grasp. Yet, I could not quit. Why? The call of God penetrated the very fiber of my being. The passion to pursue His plan became like an unquenchable fire that burned deep inside the recesses of my soul.


God will ignite a burning desire in you to fulfill a higher calling. He will stir up a fire in you to fuel your faith through times of fear and ambiguity. On this journey to discover and fulfill the call of God, you may feel like you are on an emotional rollercoaster, but continue to press on. Remember, when you are serious about seeking God, you are guaranteed to go through periods of uncertainty. Still, don’t be deterred. Just keep seeking Him. Hebrews 11:6 says, “…he who comes to God must believe that He is, and He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him” (NKJV).


Know that even though things may not come together all at once, God will complete the work He has begun in you. It pays to seek the Lord. Don’t give up your search to understand His call. When you seek Him, you will find Him, and when you find Him, you will find you. Then, the details of your call will be made clear.


These foundational principles are so important. Remember and rehearse what you have learned in this chapter. These principles will assist you in developing your faith during every stage of your journey. Never forget, God has indeed chosen you to complete an assignment that was laid out before the foundation of the world. As you walk with Him, He will continue to unfold His plan.

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