Well, if you have been reading my blog for any amount of time, you will have realized that my posting has gone down in the last six months to just the bare minimum. I wanted to take a minute of your time to let you know what was going on in our lives (and ask for prayer - if you are the praying type).
In April, we found out that our 16 year old daughter was pregnant. It definitely threw our family for a loop. Pretty much sucked the air out of any energy I had for reading/blogging. At first, she was very adamant about keeping the child (a girl) and raising her, finishing high school, going to college. We didn't feel that we could discourage her one way or the other, as we didn't want her to resent us for making her give up the baby/or keep the baby. This needed to be her decision.
As time has passed though, our daughter has decided to enter into an open adoption with my sister and BIL. They have been trying to have a baby for years, and had even tried to adopt a baby from Haiti, but with no luck. She has realized that with school and work, that her baby would be spending more time with caregivers than with her and so feels this would be the best thing for the baby.
My emotions have been all over the place. (and we won't even talk about how my husband has been feeling) Once I had accepted the fact that she was actually pregnant (well - still haven't fully accepted that. . .) and that she wanted to raise the baby I tried to come to terms with what my role was going to be in this child's life. I knew that even though I said that SHE was going to be the baby's mother, that a lot of the child's care was going to fall to me. Made me realize that I really did not want to have another baby. Then when she decided to pursue the adoption, it took me awhile to accept the fact that the baby was NOT going to be here. Because she is being adopted by my sister though, I still get to be a grandma (as well as an aunt. . .)
I know that the closer her due date comes (10/29) the harder everything is going to become. I am not sure how much of a support system that I am going to be for my daughter after the baby is born and goes home with my sister - as I cry at kleenex commercials. Her first day of school is coming up in a couple of weeks - she will be starting her junior year of h.s. - and she is a little worried how people are going to act around her/with her. She wasn't really showing when school ended last year, and she is definitely showing now. I don't think she realizes how much bigger she is going to get in the next 3 months. So please just keep us in your prayers.
So, as to blogging - my reading has been picking up, but I have been very slow with reviews. I hope to begin to get caught up on reviews this month and my goal is to be fully functioning blogwise again by Sept 1. So, if you have stuck with me through this hiatus - thank you so much, and if you have just recently started reading my blog - please stay tuned!